Gazing into the abyss
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At the end of the day
Dandelion: “Will you come back tomorrow?”
Sun: “Every single day, my dear!”
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My favorite books
“Books are the quietest and most constant of friends; they are the most accessible and wisest of counselors, and the most patient of teachers.”
― Charles W. EliotBooks are my most valued companions wherever I go and I usually carry at least one of these paper buddies with me at all times. I could browse through bookshops or the internet for hours to find the next written adventure I can jump right into. In my opinion they are an exquisit entrance gate into the world of other people’s heads and I love to get lost in these stories and to find out something new about myself through them. I especially worship those that transform your way of thinking and where you do not get out the same person as you were before you started to read them. So here are some of my most beloved titles (not in any particular order) which have been my mentors and friends, gave me comfort in difficult times, made me laugh and cry and helped me to understand the world around me a little bit better. Maybe there’s something for you among them as well 🙂
Talk to you soon
Theresa- Shantaram – Gregory Roberts
- Ein ganzes Leben – Robert Seethaler
- Ishmael – Daniel Qinn
- The Alchemist – Paolo Coelho
- Siddharta & Narziss und Goldmund- Hermann Hesse
- Das größere Wunder – Thomas Glavinic
- The Bhagavad Gita
- The essential Rumi
- The power of now & A new earth – Eckhardt Tolle
- The untethered soul – Michael A. Singer
- Conscious Loving – Gay Hendricks
- Big Magic C – Elizabeth Gilbert
- Vom Ende der Einsamkeit – Benedikt Wells
- Das Kartengeheimnis & Das Orangenmädchen – Jostein Gaarder
- Was man von hier aus sehen kann – Mariana Leyke
- Die Mitte der Welt – Andreas Steinhöfel
- América – T.C. Boyle
- Milk and Honey – Rupi Kaur
- Thinking fast and Slow – Daniel Kahnemann
- Freedom – Jonathan Franzen
- The heart’s invisible furies – John Boyne
- Ich bin raus – Robert Wringham
- The Brooklyn follies – Paul Auster
- What I loved – Siri Hustvedt
- You gotta have balls – Lily Bret
- Die Eleganz des Igels – Muriel Barbary
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Sit and wait
It is quiet on the mountain
It is quiet by the lake
It is quiet at the seashore
Where I just sit and waitWhere I sit and wait for thoughts
Where I sit and wait for words
Where I sit and wait so long
Until it starts to hurtUntil all of my feelings
Come crashing over me
Until I can’t escape
What I really need to seeWhat usually is covered
By all the noise around
By all those nagging voices
And disturbing city soundsAnd as the noises stop
I start to comprehend
Everything that hurts
Just helps me to understandJust like a stone blocking a cave
That you have to remove
To bring in all the light
When you want to find the truthWhen everything is quiet
When no one is around
Someone whispers me the answers
So I can write them downSo I sit quiet on the mountain
I sit quiet by the lake
I sit quiet at the seashore
I just sit and wait©mywritingtherapy
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Danit – Nauraleza
I just quickly wanted to share a beautiful song that I had on repeat constantly for the past couple of days.
Hope you enjoy it as much as I do.Danit – Naturaleza (Mose Edit)
And also a big, big, big thanks to everyone who is hanging out with me and my thoughts on here more or less often,
very much appreciated <3Talk to you soon again
Theresa
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The Keys
Wherever I go
I always miss those keys
The feeling when my fingers touch the smooth, polished surface
The moment before I push them down
It is filled with silence
But already holds all the tones that are about to come
A pause
Before I pour my heart all over it
And then with a soft pressure
The first note escapes
Breaking the stillness
The first raindrop of a thunderstorm
My hands begin to tremble
My fingers start to run faster
Up and down
In waves
Out of my control
I am out at sea
In a little boat
Guided by an external force
The melodies come crashing in
Shaken to the core by what is going on outside
I am unable to escape the motion
But try to move with it
Sometimes drowning under water
Holding my breath
Feeling the beauty in the roughness
Of these crooked tones
Sometimes floating on the surface
Dancing on the water
In total harmony
No matter where I am
I let go
I let go of myself and give in
to this black and white storm
This melodious depth
This musical force
Let it carry me
I forget about time and space
Only me, my hands and these keys
Magic
Until the storm pulls away
The winds settle
And with the last raindrop
I release the pressure
And take my hands away
The final note still hanging in the air
Is taken over by silence
Which still vibrates from all the tones that just escaped
And I feel relieved
I always miss those keys
Wherever I go©mywritingtherapy
Sidenote:
While I wrote this I was listening to Jean-Michel Blais. Incredibly beautiful piano music!
You can listen to it here
SpotifyTalk to you soon again
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So, what’s your job? / Herzsache
On my trip to Mexico in 2017 I met a German guy in my hostel and we decided to explore some Mayan ruins together. Of course I first asked him what his job was and and we talked a round about his and my profession. But only at the end of the day we spent togeher I found out that he was making music and wrote lyrics in his free time. Suddenly, when he was talking about that, there was a sparkle in his eyes which immediately got to me. It gave me a totally new impression of him. And boy, I was impressed by his messages, lyrics and beats when I got a first listen on the busride home.
This story always reminds me to try to start a conversation not by asking what someone is doing for a job but what their true passion is. What excites them. What do they love to do. Their „Herzsache“ (matter of the heart). That usually tells such a more powerful story about a person than a jobtitle. And in the best case passion and job are even the same thing!
Long story short, please give this talented gentleman, Renas, with his intelligent wordgames and heartfilling lyrics a listen because the world needs more people and messages like this!!
Herzsache
Leg die Hand auf meine Brust
Und höre drauf, was mein Herz halt so brummt
Herzsache
innere stimme der Vernunft
dass die meisten für sie Taub sind
ist für Vieles hier der GrundRenas Tokan – Herzssache
Listen on Spotify
Talk to you soon again
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Mary Oliver – The Journey
Mary Oliver – The Journey One day you finally knew
What you had to do, and began,
Though the voices around you
Kept shouting
Their bad advice‚
Though the whole house
Began to tremble
And you felt the old tug
At your ankles.
“Mend my life!”
Each voice cried.
But you didn’t stop.
You knew what you had to do,
Though the wind pried
With its stiff fingers
At the very foundations‚
Though their melancholy
Was terrible.
It was already late
Enough, and a wild night,
And the road full of fallen
Branches and stones.
But little by little,
As you left their voices behind,
The stars began to burn
Through the sheets of clouds,
And there was a new voice,
Which you slowly
Recognized as your own,
That kept you company
As you strode deeper and deeper
Into the world,
Determined to do
The only thing you could do‚
Determined to save
The only life you could save.Yes, it can be really hard to just follow your own heart and go on your own path despite what everyone around you is saying. And this poem by Mary Oliver really covers a lot of feelings I have towards that topic. Maybe it also speaks to you and encourages you to go your own individual way and also to continue to do so although it might get tough at times. The struggle will be worth it!
Talk to you soon again
Theresa
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The soul
Yesterday evening a local Band from Sri Lanka played at the hotel I was staying and their songs, lyrics and also the lead singer’s voice really really blew my mind (Yes, they might have a new groupie now). And I did not want to withhold them from you. They are called ‘The Soul’ and recently recorded an Album which you can find on Spotify.
I especially loved their song ‘Butterflies in flight’ which you can also find here:
Hope you enjoy it as much as I do!
Talk to you soon again
Theresa
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Der rechte Fleck
Und ich laufe durch die Nacht
bin von der Stille aufgewacht
Hab keinen Weg und auch kein Ziel
Licht aus, die Dunkelheit verrät nicht vielBeim Aufbruch hab ich niemanden geweckt
Aus Angst sie hielten mich zurück
Hab’s fast nicht aus der Tür geschafft
und mich am Ende doch noch aufgerafftJetzt wander ich allein umher
kein Mensch hier, die Straßen leer
Meine Gedanken treiben mich voran
Die Angst ist groß, ich komm nie anAufbruch, Losrennen und schnell weg
Auf der Suche nach dem rechten Fleck
Weiß niemals ob ich richtig bin
Ist das der Weg, wo muss ich hinAn der Kreuzung steht ein Mann
und er sieht mich fragend an
wär schön, wenn du hier bei mir bleibst
nur solange bis’ dich weitertreibtEs tut mir leid, das kann ich nicht
und lauf schon los während ers noch spricht
Ich muss alleine weitergehen
und zuerst einmal mich selbst verstehenDie Füße tun schön langsam weh
Der Asphalt ist hart auf dem ich geh
Eine Stimme fragt „ist es noch weit“
Ich dreh mich hier doch nur im KreisAufbruch, Losrennen und schnell weg
Auf der Suche nach dem rechten Fleck
Weiß niemals ob ich richtig bin
Ist das der Weg, wo muss ich hinUnd ich denke schon ich find ihn nicht
da trifft ein Lichtstrahl mein Gesicht
und auf der Straße vor mir gehen Leute
Schön, dass du endlich da bist, hör ichs von der SeiteAufbruch losrennen und schnell weg
auf der Suche nach dem rechten Fleck
Scheint als ob ich endlich richtig bin
Das ist mein Weg hier will ich hin©mywritingtherapy
Just returned from a 10 day Vipassana meditation course and though I don not think I am glowing in the dark now I do feel a lot lighter, reliefed and happy :). The schedule was pretty tight, you get up at four, you’re not allowed to talk, read, write, exercise or have any interaction with anyone around you. Basically it’s 10 hours of meditation straight every day (100hrs in total). It was already my second 10 day Vipassana and I really have to say I foud a gemstone for myself and I do think that everyone can really profit from the technique that is taught there. The main goal is insight and awareness which is achieved by ‘examing’ the whole body and it’s sensations with the mind. It is free from any religion and believe and basically free of charge because it’s donationbased. I do not want to convince or convert anyone here but if you are interested there is more information on the Website (dhamma.org) and you can also ask me anything about it if you want. And by the way Vipassana centers are to be found all over the world.
One more positive effect is that it has always been very fruitful for my creativity and writing so there’s more stuff in the making for this little space here. For now I only wanted to share some lyrics of a song I wrote a couple of years ago that kept coming up throughout the course.
Here’s also a recording of the song
Der rechte Fleck (Soundcloud)Talk to you soon again
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Sri Lanka, here I come!
New adventures ahead!
I am currently on a train to the airport in Vienna catching a plane to Sri Lanka where I’ll be spending the next months. There’s no return date yet. First stop will be a 10 day vipassana meditation course and then I’ll probably head south to catch some waves and thoughts to write about. Looking forward to this new country, new culture and new inspiration and I’m happy if you come along with me through this little blog
As I’m writing this I’m listening to Nil Ciuró. Beautiful beautiful music! Give it a listen!
Spotify Nil Ciuró – Futuralgia
Soundcloud Nil Ciuró – Futuralgia
Talk to you soon again.
Theresa
P.S.: Flying is still one of the most magical things in the world <3
