• Promise

    I do not know
    If we will be together
    Through any storm
    Through any weather

    But I will try to fall in love with you
    Every single day anew




    As I watch you sleeping
    I try to find out what I feel
    Could this be something
    Could this be something real

    Will we last forever and ever
    Are you the one?
    And if it gets windy
    Can we make it through the storm

    Can we be good to each other
    Even at times when it seems that we can’t
    Can we accept the other
    Including all the parts we don’t understand

    Can you hold me tight
    On days when I’m falling
    And can you set me free
    On days when the world is calling (for me)

    Are we able to let us
    Go our own and individual way
    Watch and cheer from the sideline
    And jump in if one of us goes astray

    Are we willing to forgive
    All the mistakes we will make
    Can we look past our faults
    And always see the person behind the mistake

    Will we remain honest friends 
    Throughout the years
    And communicate clearly
    All of our desires, insecurities and fears

    Will we continue to laugh
    About nonsense, this mad world and ourselves
    Can we keep it lightly
    Even if life puts heavy weights on our shelves 

    Will our bodies still desire each other
    Even after the thousandth touch
    Still long for the ecstasy
    Of which we can’t get enough

    Will you still love me 
    When I’m old and grey
    when my eyes and breasts are wrinkled
    And my booty shows signs of decay

    Will we hold hands
    On that day when death invites one of us to leave
    Will the memories we have built together
    Save us from drowning in grief

    Will this life be better
    If we stay together?

    All of these questions
    Are floating around
    Do we need all the answers
    To figure this out?

    Because for now we are here
    Wrapped up side by side
    and as I watch you breathing
    There’s no place I’d rather hide

    We’ll just take it from here
    One step at a time
    No rush and no hurry
    Let’s just follow the signs

    I’ll give you my all
    For as long as I can
    For as long as you
    Decide to be my man

    And then you woke up
    And your gaze met mine
    I put the questions aside
    And our bodies simply intertwined


  • Depression

    I’m just so tired
    Trying to explain
    The state that I’m in
    That I feel all this pain

    It’s so dark where I am
    the last match has burned out
    And nobody hears
    How I desperately shout

    And I am so sorry
    To put that burden on you
    You’re my last resort
    I don’t know what else to do

    I need you right now
    I’m falling apart
    There seems nothing left
    The world is breaking my heart

    There’s this question
    That keeps me awake
    How can something so shattered
    Continue to break


  • Enough

    Why is it that there are so many
    Who love me for me
    But for you I’m never enough
    Although I’ve tried so desperately

    Why do you persist on trying to change
    The way that I’m living
    You better take me as I am today
    Because tomorrow’s not given

    It’s so hard to keep up these roles
    Of our happy faced masquerade
    When do we finally stop
    To play our wicked game of charades

    I am done with fighting
    Feeling like I am never enough
    If you do not take me as I am
    You do not deserve my love


  • Phönix

    Wie bist du nur hier reingekommen
    Ich dacht ich hätte alles abgesperrt
    Doch da stehst du nun
    Mittendrin in meinem Herz

    Mit dem Willkommen
    Tu ich mir etwas schwer
    Das letzte Mal, dass jemand hier war
    Ist schon eine Weile her

    Die Meisten die bis hierher kamen
    Haben mein Haus in Brand gesteckt
    Seitdem sitz ich in den grauen Resten
    Still und ganz verschreckt

    Auch du wirkst leicht verstört
    Von dem was du hier siehst
    Ich kann sehen wie du zitterst
    Weil der kalte Wind dir um die Ohren zieht

    Trotzdem kommst du langsam auf mich zu
    Und lachst mich schüchtern an
    Du nimmst mich bei der Hand
    Und auf einmal wird es warm

    Ist es wirklich wahr
    Dass der Phönix aus der Asche steigt
    Und sich mit einem Flügelschlag
    Von der Erinnerung befreit

    Ich glaube es wird Zeit
    Hier etwas aufzuräumen
    Um wieder Platz zu machen
    Zum Lieben und zum Träumen


  • Happiness forensics

    When I am sad
    I sometimes look at photographs
    Of happy days
    I look closely
    Trying to find
    What put that smile on my face